Sorry i havent been around i was busy doing stuff at something called PRIOR (Puerto Rico Institute of Robotics) Competition in which we rocked and got second place out of fifty-nine schools YEAH!

on to the real reason of the journal

I have started to realize that ,after "staying friends" with a a girl(which will not be mentioned by name)I have been holding back so many of my emotions, that i figured out it wasnt long till they overwhelmed me.<---dont know if that even made sense.... But yes, i realized that i need to find someone to talk with in private and talk to about anything and everything, unfortunately i have no such person. I know that i could to the girl, but if i do she will know and understand how i feel and it will make her feel guilty when she shouldnt be. First off i want to tell you, girl, that we both wanted to stay friends and its my fault that i started to like you again after a while. I understood that you didnt want to break my heart and yes at first it hurt a lot but eventually the pain just goes away. You're an awesome person and an even better friend, so dont feel guilty,'kay?

Now i started liking someone else but yet againg friendship is in the way. The way that they both look at each other gives me the lowwest feeling, see i usually dont get much attention from society with the sole exception from the few friends that i have and of course family. But see if you tell one of my friends the rest find out, which reminds me that i have a couple of them here on DA, either way i want to try and get rid of some of whats built up inside.So yeah i'm the kid in the classroom that gets disrespected 47% percent of the time and ignored 53%. If you have a kid in your classroom or work area please give him a good hug cuz you really never know when he, she or I might need it. This person might probably start crying uncontrolably but not in the annoying manner but in the way that tears run down consantly while they try to hold it back but fail. And Well, another thing thats got me down is the fact that everytime i ask a girl thats a friend she's always saying "Awe, you're a good friend, you're sweet, you're nice, etc." I hate when people do this, you know? it only makes things worse for me, they make me want to burst and say " Well, if i'm such a sweet and nice boy why don't you date me?"

i know this probably wont make sense to any one who reads this but please try to put yourself in a nobody's shoes... and NO fan girls i dont mean the stinkin kingdom hearts nobodies.